Goal.

I just had a thought. A new goal.

And thats to someday, somehow, be able to say, clear of doubt and with utter convictions the following phrases.

"Talent is bull. Hard work is everything."

"Sincerity will get you anywhere."

I believe talent can only get you as far as your diligence and passion will take you.

I believe that nobody is extremely talented, just extremely diligent. This makes all the successes I've read and seen seem within a stones throw away. It's hope and hope is everything.

I believe sincerity, just like anger and sadness can be felt by others, well by definition I suppose it has to, but more and more people are shielding themselves from it. I'm not so optimistic as to believe I can convince everyone I meet I'm sincere of my objectives, mostly because in order for that to happen other people must create a space for it to flourish. In that respect I think Janet has done a great job.

Idealistic as I am, holding on to these thoughts is the meaning I prescribe to my life so it doesn't become a putrid mass of stinking jell-o in the future.

Bob Thurman: Becoming Buddha -- on the Web

Ideas.

When I get an idea in my head, I like to dwell on it a little, let it swell and build up, let it feed of the electrical impulses generated by my neurons, let it sit and imagine it grow and I think about what it could or can or should be like.

I sit around, maybe surf the web a little or play a little team fotress2 or smoke a cigarettes waiting for something to happen while the idea sits in my head, waiting to be executed.

I'm not stupid, and I realize this is a bad practice, but sometimes what you need isn't kind words of encouragement, or postcards telling you to believe in yourself or motivational posters from 4chan.

Sometimes what you need is a good kick in the head. A strong kick, the kind that Pele or Zidane or heaven forbid, those rugby flykickers or even worse, american football players might dish out. One that starts out innocent, and speeds up with ferocious velocity and force just before the moment of impact. The kind that sends you flying and makes you kiss uranus. -haha.

So when all is said and done I guess what I'm trying to say is go out. Stop procrastinating. Do something. You've slacked long enough you feather brained numbskull. Do CLive a favor and work on those ads and ideas. YOu know you've got them, but right now they're still babies, waiting to be fed and nourished, perhaps one day becoming the tarrantula that all ideas aspire to be.

.... you had to be there.

ANYCASE.

What I really mean to say after all that self reflective ranting and loathing is this.

WATCH THIS DUMBASS.

Realizing that saying that may not really get you to watch the intended video - which is what I desire for you to do, only reader - here is an improved, cleansed, cleaner, politer link to click on.

edit:
I wanted to add something here but I can't remember. Maybe narcissistically looking at the homepage of my blog will help me remember. I'll do that now.

edit2:
I remember. I was going to say, if you're reading this then probably A) you've not clicked on either link, or B) you've opened said link in another tab. ANYCASE, whatever you've done, I implore yout o check out some of the guy ( Ze Frank) punya other videos. especially if you consider yourself part of the creativ-sphere.

Smoking.

When someone tries to quit smoking they lose it at the last minute because they lose sight on what could have become of them if they succeed. Instead the nicotine craving clogs their minds and all they can think of is how to get more.

I'm going to base my whole smoking campaign on this insight, if you cal call it that.

Still alive

I don't usually post lyrics.
but this song is just too good and funny to pass up.

If you haven't played portal or checked out half-life 1&2 i suggest you do so asap.

:F

the song itself.

Lyrics to Portal credits

Spoilers, read at own risk!!!

This was a triumph
I'm making a note here
HUGE SUCCESS
It's hard to overstate my satisfaction
Aperture Science

we do what we must because we can
for the good of all of us except for the ones who are dead
but there's no sense crying over every mistake
you just keep on trying until you run out of cake
and the science gets done and you make a neat gun
for the people who are still alive

I'm not even angry
I'm being so sincere right now
even though you broke my heart and killed me
and torn into pieces
and threw every piece into a fire
as they burned it hurt because I was so happy for you!
Now these points of data make a wonderful line
and we're out of beta, we're releasing on time
so I'm glad I got burned
Think of all the things we learned for the people that are still alive

go ahead and leave me
I think I prefer to stay inside
maybe you'll find someone else to help you
maybe black mesa
that was a joke, haha, fat chance
anyway this cake is great, it's so delicious and moist
look at me still talking, when there's science to do
when I look out there it makes me glad I'm not you
I've experiments to run, there is research to be done
on the people who are still alive

and believe me I am still alive
I'm doing science and I'm still alive
I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive
While you are dying I'll be still alive
and when you're dead I'll be still alive
STILL ALIVE, still alive

I'm in art school.

This sums up my current feeling about art school very nicely.

From Postsecrets.com

buying music online

Ah, the joys of capitalist consumerism.

I just purchased Radiohead's new album online.

If you haven't been keeping up( like me ). Heres the story.

Sometime in the past, Radiohead's contract with their previous recording label expired. Being the fine, intelligent chaps they are they opted not to renew it or sign another contract, instead, they decided to operate as free agent musicians, selling their music through the internet directly to the public. Cutting out the evil middleman known as the recording label.

What's special about this is that they are allowing consumers to pay whatever they want for the album. So i paid GBP 1.45 for it. 45p is for the credit card wrangling fee or something, where as the one pound is for the music itself. Pretty good deal if you ask me. You could pay just 45p for it, which is the minimum charge, if that is what you wish, me? My conscience was nagging.

Yeah, apparently it's been done before by some other band, but this IS Radiohaead we're talking. Currently one of the biggest band in the world.

SO yeah, this is massive.

It feels surprisingly good to buy something and pay whatever you want for it. It gives you a sense of satisfaction for some reason, and it feels great cause you KNOW you're not being ripped off. I must say this is the happiest purchase I've ever made in my life.

Radiohead giving away free music, Nine Inch Nails going independent....

The music world is in for some serious awakening

Intention

My friend showed my a movie she had done up for class while I was in London over the weekend. It was a script for a 3 minute silent black and white short film. It was cryptic as it could get, featuring a boy in a hospital room listening to sounds ffrom a glass apparently.

She asked me for feedback, I found myself stunned and unable to speak, now that I look back, I wonder why. Was it the fear and intimidation of class and status I had imposed on myself when I'm confronting her? (she's much older than me and I sort of respect her in more ways than 1) Or was it the fear of judgment? I found myself unable to articulate the thoughts in my head, unable to form sentences, I paused for quite some time before making another comment that was neither what she was looking for nor the clear abstract of thought in my head.

Maybe it was my first time looking at a "non-shooting script", but I just couldn't get the short film, according to her all her other peers got it. I'm left wondering if it was just me, or everyone else pretended to get it but me.

At the end though we did reach some sort of conclusion, she thought of a way to improve the script and make it visually dramatic, though was it with or without my help, I can't say.

Looking back though, I realize the first thing I should have done is asked her the intention of the short film, because that nagging thought at the back of my head when I was reviewing the script was really a voice telling me I can't get the intention of the film.

I think that intention is the most important thing when one is creating something. It outlines the principles of the work, supplies the foundation on which that piece of work will be built on, and if the intention is clear enough, will determine the visual look and feel of the work.

From now on every time I do an ad or a project, there will be a post it on the side of it outlining the intention of the work.

I can't test this intention theory of mine, so it remains a thought I suppose, but like Scoot Adams once said: "It's as good as knowledge".

At least thats what I like to tell myself anyway.