Don't Piss me off.
Don't try to be nice.
DOn't pretend.
Don't kick me out of a bar and take away my right to party just cos you think I don't look old enough.
Don't fuckin sell me an empty box on a shelf fucking pretending to be a game.
Don't even think about it.
DOn't try not to refund me tomorrow.
Don't be not at work tomorrow when I claim my legally purchased product.
Just don't.
I've had too much shit happen to me today.
Just fuckin don't.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
yay.
Today the sky was gray and cloudy.
It was gloomy and depressing.
But today it rained.
It rained quite heavily for British standards.
Now it's stopped.
I think I can see dew drops on the leaves from where I'm typing.
It's a wet, humid smell.
After the rain it's still gray.
"No clear skies today", said God.
It's damp and it's wet, but I like it.
It feels like home.
Damn I miss home.
It was gloomy and depressing.
But today it rained.
It rained quite heavily for British standards.
Now it's stopped.
I think I can see dew drops on the leaves from where I'm typing.
It's a wet, humid smell.
After the rain it's still gray.
"No clear skies today", said God.
It's damp and it's wet, but I like it.
It feels like home.
Damn I miss home.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Huge repercussions.
Today marks the first time my blogging habit has bitten me back in the arse.
A while back I made a post on racism. I used real events as examples.
By some freakishly improbable twisted miracle of some sort those involved in the events I was using as my rhetoric discussion caught wind of this post and sent me this.
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Firstly, pity the fact that you didn’t enjoy yourself with the "free meal" on Tuesday because you found our “racist” remarks offensive. But I think if this “racist” issue is something you feel strongly about, maybe you should have voiced out on the spot instead of pretending you’re ok with it or just retort with a lame “it’s hot” statement.
I will apologise if hardworking Malay asks me to, but definitely not to you.
Yes, linking the Spanish to the Malays and hence concluding they’re lazy was a racist statement.
But if your Hongkie classmate doesn’t finish his work because he was lazy and you said “you’re SO lazy.” Is that a racist statement too?
In my defense, I had never said that my flat mates were “nasty, unclean, unhygienic etc etc”.
In fact, I had always said “my flat mates are very clean and quiet.” The one with unclean, unhygienic flat mates is Rachelle.
The one thing I hate about them, actually him, was he would play football along the corridor early in the morning, and he would cook a week’s meal and stuff it all in the freezer/ fridge, leaving no space for other people to keep their stuff. People who are inconsiderate will never be tolerated, irregardless of race. So please get your facts right before you make any statements.
This, clearly a childish and stupid misunderstanding between us, but it is also a misunderstanding that I do not wish to debate any longer.
The bottom line is, do not make negative assumptions about others. It is wrong to be a racist but please don't act as if you're really THAT liberal because I do not believe there is anyone in this world who do not harbour prejudice at all. It’s just that people are not willing to admit it to themselves.
In a perfect world everyone will love one another regardless of how they look or what they do. In a perfect world, money will fall from the sky.
So please leave your cocoon and realise the world is NOT perfect.
I don’t know what tone and manner you were using while you were writing this but I do not like the way u wrote about my parents. You do not know them and definitely have no right to judge them.
And for your information, sometimes when people don’t shut up, perhaps it’s not because they do not want to, but because they just don’t want to leave a new friend out of their conversation.
***
It's understandable to defend your parents. But I don't see how anyone can take a stand for racism and bigotry. Just because that a lot of people harbor prejudice doesn't mean that we have to.
Case study:
If your parents were racist and someone else told you so, how would you react?
Yes I do harbor prejudice. I harbor prejudice against those who harbor prejudice. Does that make sense or is it just plain hypocritical?
It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth this letter, but I suppose it is fair. The evil side of me takes pride in this because it feels like I've reached people I didn't thought possible.
For me this is quite astounding. Never before has a post of mine has such huge repercussions on myself. I regret and take pride in it at the same time. It's a weird feeling.
But now I have to find somewhere else to stay for fall and winter. I suppose it is for the best.
A while back I made a post on racism. I used real events as examples.
By some freakishly improbable twisted miracle of some sort those involved in the events I was using as my rhetoric discussion caught wind of this post and sent me this.
***
Firstly, pity the fact that you didn’t enjoy yourself with the "free meal" on Tuesday because you found our “racist” remarks offensive. But I think if this “racist” issue is something you feel strongly about, maybe you should have voiced out on the spot instead of pretending you’re ok with it or just retort with a lame “it’s hot” statement.
I will apologise if hardworking Malay asks me to, but definitely not to you.
Yes, linking the Spanish to the Malays and hence concluding they’re lazy was a racist statement.
But if your Hongkie classmate doesn’t finish his work because he was lazy and you said “you’re SO lazy.” Is that a racist statement too?
In my defense, I had never said that my flat mates were “nasty, unclean, unhygienic etc etc”.
In fact, I had always said “my flat mates are very clean and quiet.” The one with unclean, unhygienic flat mates is Rachelle.
The one thing I hate about them, actually him, was he would play football along the corridor early in the morning, and he would cook a week’s meal and stuff it all in the freezer/ fridge, leaving no space for other people to keep their stuff. People who are inconsiderate will never be tolerated, irregardless of race. So please get your facts right before you make any statements.
This, clearly a childish and stupid misunderstanding between us, but it is also a misunderstanding that I do not wish to debate any longer.
The bottom line is, do not make negative assumptions about others. It is wrong to be a racist but please don't act as if you're really THAT liberal because I do not believe there is anyone in this world who do not harbour prejudice at all. It’s just that people are not willing to admit it to themselves.
In a perfect world everyone will love one another regardless of how they look or what they do. In a perfect world, money will fall from the sky.
So please leave your cocoon and realise the world is NOT perfect.
I don’t know what tone and manner you were using while you were writing this but I do not like the way u wrote about my parents. You do not know them and definitely have no right to judge them.
And for your information, sometimes when people don’t shut up, perhaps it’s not because they do not want to, but because they just don’t want to leave a new friend out of their conversation.
***
It's understandable to defend your parents. But I don't see how anyone can take a stand for racism and bigotry. Just because that a lot of people harbor prejudice doesn't mean that we have to.
Case study:
If your parents were racist and someone else told you so, how would you react?
Yes I do harbor prejudice. I harbor prejudice against those who harbor prejudice. Does that make sense or is it just plain hypocritical?
It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth this letter, but I suppose it is fair. The evil side of me takes pride in this because it feels like I've reached people I didn't thought possible.
For me this is quite astounding. Never before has a post of mine has such huge repercussions on myself. I regret and take pride in it at the same time. It's a weird feeling.
But now I have to find somewhere else to stay for fall and winter. I suppose it is for the best.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
It's a horrible time to be blind.
I'm a huge geek. But geek or not it's just painstakingly difficult not to say how fuckin cool this is.
I'm giddy with excitement. I can't wait til this thin hits the market. What a horrible time to be blind indeed. As I watched the video I'm reminded of the iPhone presentation in the beginning of the year by Steve Jobs. The difference being that the chill sen down my spine and all over my body is even more intense with this one.
Imagine the possibilities!!
For a design conscious young adult(TM) like me this is absolutely massive.
But..... it IS from Microsoft. So here's crossed fingers to no Blue screen death.
I'm giddy with excitement. I can't wait til this thin hits the market. What a horrible time to be blind indeed. As I watched the video I'm reminded of the iPhone presentation in the beginning of the year by Steve Jobs. The difference being that the chill sen down my spine and all over my body is even more intense with this one.
Imagine the possibilities!!
For a design conscious young adult(TM) like me this is absolutely massive.
But..... it IS from Microsoft. So here's crossed fingers to no Blue screen death.
Monday, June 04, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Microsoft Surface
I heard some time ago that a good way to see if you have a life is to see how often your blog is updated. The two are inversely related I hear. :D
In any case I came across this this afternoon.
http://www.microsoft.com/surface/
Its like Microsoft took a look at Apple's iPhone, and said " hey that's cool, why don't we blow it up on a table and see what happens?"
The website says the ideas were conjured in 2001, but it seems suspicious right after Apple's iPhone though.
Sure the Jetpacks, flying cars and glass cities we were promised in the 70's never arrived, but this looks cool all right.
I just hope there's no blue screen death on this thing.
In any case I came across this this afternoon.
http://www.microsoft.com/surface/
Its like Microsoft took a look at Apple's iPhone, and said " hey that's cool, why don't we blow it up on a table and see what happens?"
The website says the ideas were conjured in 2001, but it seems suspicious right after Apple's iPhone though.
Sure the Jetpacks, flying cars and glass cities we were promised in the 70's never arrived, but this looks cool all right.
I just hope there's no blue screen death on this thing.
on racism and bigotry.
Last night my future housemate's parents were in town. He invited a number of people to dine together with his family. Me being me, I'd be hard pressed not to pass up a free meal. So I went. Despite off-schedule assignments and all.
The meal itself was alright, chinese food in western countries is just that. It's never better than the real stuff. But yeah. Halfway through the meal they started chatting, and it was about many things, but mainly about papa and mama's trip in Europe. they talked about various, nothing particularly exciting, as my tone would imply, but then they got to Spain. Short rambling about siestas, cos in spain, there's a period of time in the afternoon, for about 2 hours, where nobody opens shop. I'd never seen it, but I'd expect Barcelona at that time to be quiet, desolate, with the sound of winds singing their painfully tone deaf serenade, citing loneliness. The 2 hour lunchbreak where everyone sleeps is called a siesta.
They likened the Spanish to Malays, and citing the horrible stereotype that all Malays are lazy.
Now I can't fucking stand racism and Bigotry, so I tried to defend the Spaniards by saying that it's hot blah blah blah, but imagine my surprise, when it was the son's turn to speak, well technically he never fucking shuts up, but it was his turn, he went on about how his flatmates(coincidentally were all of south African descent) were nasty, unclean, unhygienic etc etc.
I was surprised but I realized I shouldn't be. Why?
Cos fucking 80% of the Malaysian population is racist. This skin color labelling is really, really getting on my nerves. Would it make any difference if the unclean flatmates are chinese? Or if we saw chinese teenagers loitering a bout the roadside would we fucking call them names? I'm citing the chinese as an example because I'm one, and those whom I speak about are as well.
It's been what? About 50 years since May 13. Too me it's gone on for long enough. I cringe at racist and bigotry statements. These people think it's alright, and unknowingly, they pass it on from generation to generation. It doesn't help either that the kids are too stupid to think for themselves.
I remember years ago, when I was sitting in the car with my mom. She'd come across some malay guy in a car and would say things like "malay pig!" In fact. I don't know if the malays know this or not. but in the chinese community "pig" has come to mean "malay". God knows the other races call each other in secret.
Yes hell I know the wounds of May 13 runs deep. But things going on the way they are the wound is not healing. I'd even go as far to say that the wound is splitting itself, into 3 distinct parts. Each one having a different interpretation of it. Time heals they say, but that doesn't hold true here.
You can go on and talk about how the government policies are all ethnocentric, and that Mahathir's "The Malay Dilemma" has been compared to Hitler's "Mein Kampf". Or you can be like my parents last I spoke to them "If you want to live in Malaysia, you got to accept that it has race problems"
But Accepting doesn't mean we can't change it. I believe everything starts at the individual level. We must believe, and have faith. But at times it's hard, when everyone turns their back to you. It feels like we're all backstabbing each other. But it doesn't have to be this way. Start by saying hi to your next door neighbour, help one another, be polite. Engage in friendly conversations, talk about our differences, understand each other.
Love can still foster if we let it. I almost think I'm mad for saying this, but it's been in my mind for far too long. Cowering, pupating itself, waiting for the right time, to erupt. I don't know how many people will read this. But if reading this spurs you to think, then I think I've done an adequate job. I've ranted on long enough. My blood still boils, but I think I'd stop here.
Malaysia Boleh.
The meal itself was alright, chinese food in western countries is just that. It's never better than the real stuff. But yeah. Halfway through the meal they started chatting, and it was about many things, but mainly about papa and mama's trip in Europe. they talked about various, nothing particularly exciting, as my tone would imply, but then they got to Spain. Short rambling about siestas, cos in spain, there's a period of time in the afternoon, for about 2 hours, where nobody opens shop. I'd never seen it, but I'd expect Barcelona at that time to be quiet, desolate, with the sound of winds singing their painfully tone deaf serenade, citing loneliness. The 2 hour lunchbreak where everyone sleeps is called a siesta.
They likened the Spanish to Malays, and citing the horrible stereotype that all Malays are lazy.
Now I can't fucking stand racism and Bigotry, so I tried to defend the Spaniards by saying that it's hot blah blah blah, but imagine my surprise, when it was the son's turn to speak, well technically he never fucking shuts up, but it was his turn, he went on about how his flatmates(coincidentally were all of south African descent) were nasty, unclean, unhygienic etc etc.
I was surprised but I realized I shouldn't be. Why?
Cos fucking 80% of the Malaysian population is racist. This skin color labelling is really, really getting on my nerves. Would it make any difference if the unclean flatmates are chinese? Or if we saw chinese teenagers loitering a bout the roadside would we fucking call them names? I'm citing the chinese as an example because I'm one, and those whom I speak about are as well.
It's been what? About 50 years since May 13. Too me it's gone on for long enough. I cringe at racist and bigotry statements. These people think it's alright, and unknowingly, they pass it on from generation to generation. It doesn't help either that the kids are too stupid to think for themselves.
I remember years ago, when I was sitting in the car with my mom. She'd come across some malay guy in a car and would say things like "malay pig!" In fact. I don't know if the malays know this or not. but in the chinese community "pig" has come to mean "malay". God knows the other races call each other in secret.
Yes hell I know the wounds of May 13 runs deep. But things going on the way they are the wound is not healing. I'd even go as far to say that the wound is splitting itself, into 3 distinct parts. Each one having a different interpretation of it. Time heals they say, but that doesn't hold true here.
You can go on and talk about how the government policies are all ethnocentric, and that Mahathir's "The Malay Dilemma" has been compared to Hitler's "Mein Kampf". Or you can be like my parents last I spoke to them "If you want to live in Malaysia, you got to accept that it has race problems"
But Accepting doesn't mean we can't change it. I believe everything starts at the individual level. We must believe, and have faith. But at times it's hard, when everyone turns their back to you. It feels like we're all backstabbing each other. But it doesn't have to be this way. Start by saying hi to your next door neighbour, help one another, be polite. Engage in friendly conversations, talk about our differences, understand each other.
Love can still foster if we let it. I almost think I'm mad for saying this, but it's been in my mind for far too long. Cowering, pupating itself, waiting for the right time, to erupt. I don't know how many people will read this. But if reading this spurs you to think, then I think I've done an adequate job. I've ranted on long enough. My blood still boils, but I think I'd stop here.
Malaysia Boleh.
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